Eight years ago today my sister passed away. I can't believe it has been so long ago. It seems like just yesterday! I think about my sister everyday. Today is a day that I seem so remember her the most.
I bought some flowers, so Sunday I went with all my girls to the cemetery to put them on her grave. It is interesting how none of my girls have met Brandee, but they seem to know her. We talk about her a lot and I hope they will know her when they see her again. They always like to hear stories about her.
One of the hardest parts about loosing my sister is thinking about the what could have beens. How we could have done things together with our kids, how she could have been an amazing aunt, and so on and so on. I really believe that she is still really a big part of our lives, I know she would not want to miss out on all the things going on in my life. I have felt her many times. The day Ryleigh Jo was born, I was in labor for over 24 hours and I know that Brandee was having one last little party with her niece before sending her to me! I feel her when we are all together as a family laughing and talking, I know she is there with us. When my brothers have gone to temple I know she is there. I really miss her and wish she was still her to do all the fun sister stuff with me, but if she has to be gone I am glad I can still feel her with us. I know she has been there to protect me many times too. 
This is a picture of us in the hospital with my sister when she was fighting her cancer. She was in the hospital for exactly one month. I tried to go visit her every day and I would bring my little brothers with me when I could.
This is a really scary picture of us rocking out before a concert that she dragged me to. I loved going places with her and she always had fun things for us to do. I think we went to a Def Leopard concert!! She also took me to the Phantom of the Opera.
This is a really scary picture of us rocking out before a concert that she dragged me to. I loved going places with her and she always had fun things for us to do. I think we went to a Def Leopard concert!! She also took me to the Phantom of the Opera.
I really miss my sister, but today was just a really hard day! I know it is hard for my whole family. It is something that is just so hard and you never want to have to deal with loosing someone.
